Witness… Monday, Mar 22 2010 

I iz one. UGH.

The call came. We have to testify next week. I am really nervous and kind of want to run far far away.

Our mentor says this is an amazing opportunity and a compliment. She says she is so proud of how well we have represented the girls and that this is a huge compliment. I want to believe her but at this moment it feels like we are in a special kind of hell.

We are meeting with the attorney tomorrow to find out exactly what we need to do and provide them with as much info as we can.  I am so worried that we will go through all of this and still lose our girls. Oddly, in the middle of this fear I keep stopping to wonder what I should wear. Way to prioritize, LOL!

We now have a chance to speak in front of a judge which in very rare around here. I feel like LMC’s whole future rests on our testimony. Oh G-d, what if we fail her? 

If I haven’t used up all my T&P requests, I could use a shitload right about now, along with a side of grace under fire and some calm, cool and collected.

Because If I Don’t Laugh I will Cry Monday, Mar 22 2010 

LMC has come a long way with her speech issues but still struggles with a lot  of sounds. She also tends to leave out key words in sentences or  rearrange them in interesting ways.

An example: We are getting ready to go out to dinner with family. LMC is misbehaving and I tell her if  she cannot behave she cannot come.  She carries on for a bit and then settles down.  S takes PBS to the car and I start to lock the door.  LMC, thinking PBS and S are leaving without her, starts screaming, ” No! Eat me! Eat me! ” at the top of her lungs. I desperately try to correct her, “Yes, you are going to eat dinner” but the eat me continued for what seemed like an eternity.

I can only imagine what our neighbors must think.

We laughed the whole way there.

 This post was 100% inspired by my friend over at Our Growing Family http://2mommies2be.wordpress.com/. Her post had  me smiling and laughing bright and early today 🙂