No Title Tuesday, Nov 25 2008 

It seems that I am a bit emotional these days ( said with much sarcasm )

I can feel the grief of the last year very plainly upon my heart. I know I am mourning the loss of possibility. I know I am aching for something out of reach.

I guess I wasn’t prepared for what the holidays would add to that sorrow.

What I didn’t know was that the sight of babies would physically hurt. I never knew that photos of a 7 month old in my inbox would feel like a knife in my heart. I didn’t know that my favorite time of year would seem so sad and empty. I had no idea that I would actually become jealous of the Duggars, stupid hair and all. I wish someone had warned me that the Rice Krispie commercial and the Hallmark commercial would make me cry. I wish I hadn’t seen the tiny little holiday dresses and suits in the store.

I had no idea you could grieve so much over something that never even existed.

I am grateful for many things this year; my wife, our new home, my friends here in blogland. But I think, for the first time ever, I am going to be very grateful for the passage of time. 

I cannot wait for this year to be over. 

I want to crack open the new calendar and see the days filled with only possibility and hope.

I know it’s early but here’s to 2009! May it bring all of us our hearts desire.

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Holiday Cheer Friday, Nov 7 2008 

This is usually my very favorite time of year. Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday, mainly because it isn’t all about gifts. I bake until I run out of time and butter and just genuinely feel warm and cozy all over. It’s a nice way to get ready for Hanukkah/Christmas, the tied-for-second favorite holidays.

I thought it might be nice to share this special time with some of you. I come here twice a day, looking for your updates, praying for great results for you, celebrating and mourning with you. I know it may sound silly, but I feel like you are friends now.

 How would you feel about a holiday card exchange? A simple, inexpensive, but personal, way to send your best holiday wishes and cheer to those you have come to know and care for.

If you have any interest please email me and we will exchange addresses. If you don’t have my email address please leave a comment and I will email you.

Thanks for reading, supporting me and cheering me on. It means so much to me.